Scene: In a classroom of part time evening students... about 2 summers ago.
Boy1: "What is up with girls these day?"
Boy 2: "Why man, what do you mean?"
Boy1: "Haven't you seen? They're all wearing those shorts. Black shorts. Those Little. Black. Shorts. They're everywhere! Every where I turn, girls are wearing them."
Girl 1 (who happens to be very skinny): "Hey, I have black shorts and I wear them all the time. My boyfriend loves them. What's wrong with them?!!"
(Awkward silence...)
Girl 2 (what many would probably describe as a plus size woman): "I dont. I would never wear them."
Girl 1: "Yeah that's coz.. Well, they're not made for..um.. Big.."
(Boy 1 chuckles and Boy 2 lets out a loud cry of laughter. The entire class pauses.)
Girl 2: "Yeah say it... go on."
Girl 1: "Nothing. I wasn't going to say anything.."
Girl 2: "Even if I wasn't FAT, I would never get caught in them! They're just.. everywhere!"
Where do I fit in all this? That's right. No where. I am neither Girl 1 or Girl 2. Needless to say, I am definitely not a Boy either (at least the last time I checked)! Two summers ago, I was actually just another student in that classroom who overheard the above conversation.
Since then what has happened? What have I been up to since graduation? Well, the first summer since graduation... I was the girl that actually had a pair of little.black.shorts. I wore them to the beach, shopping, eating out, catching up with friends, to the movies. etc etc. You get the gist. I didn't think too much of it at all back then. But looking back now, I was one of them girls that could rock wearing a pair of little black shorts. Quite comfortably and.. Quite confidently.
Have you picked up the past tense in my language as yet?
Well that's exactly it. In the PAST I was able to do this. Two summers ago to be precise. To comfortably and confidently wear my little.black.shorts anywhere that I wanted.
And now? Well.. what can I say? Removing all the excuses and justification in all this.. to put it in simple terms. I had let myself go.
My litlle black shorts now sit at the very bottom of my 'pile of use to fit size 8 clothes,' along with my confidence, determination and 'bring-it-on' attitude!!
Stay tuned to read about my journey in getting all that back. My confidence, my determination and my 'dont stand in my way or mess with me coz i want my little.black.shorts' attitude!
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